Day 14,686

Didn't fall asleep again until just after 5. Woke to my cousin and the German housemate seemingly getting their day started. Rolled over until about 9. Downstairs to fill kettle, back upstairs to pee and put coffee granules in my mug, back downstairs to fill mug, back upstairs to play poker and smoke and lost just about everything again both at the tables and on the slot machine, feeling very depressed and new bank card seemingly lost in the mail and inability to get an Israeli bank account nor citizenship nor a girlfriend nor a wife, police either ignoring me or treating me like a criminal... time to start the poker day and shower...I guess.

10:40am and scored 93 daily points on GOP3 and had my coffee and a bunch of cigarettes and really don't want to do anything today.

11:35am and showered and no clue, at least nothing original and interesting, what to do with the day.

1:44 and finally at the bus stop to go to Jerusalem. Skipping morning brachos and Netilas Yadayim and Shacharis and Talis and Tefillin. Today I feel that if G-d wants me to serve Him He should at least meet me halfway, i.e. the funds for half an apartment, i.e. a wife to share one with, and the income to support it, and then some. I think I'll head to the city centre, get some more cigarettes, a hot dog and then go to the old city to beg until supper time. I had thought about going to Lechem Basar for a steak dinner but it's expensive and lonely and I always come back to a house full of guys, never a happy to see or be with me, wife... let alone a good looking one. Supposedly Zara has suits for 98nis but I'm still (stupidly?) saving for my own home.

3:10pm and getting a new (off-white) blazer at Zara for 90nis with a friend giving me back 50nis later (to help with the expense).

3:40pm and arrival in the old city. Tentative plan is to collect until about 8/9/10, head to town to get some supper and then back to my cousin's house for more tv and sleep - can't play poker as I lost everything on the slot machine... again.

4:30pm and Uziel comes by with coffee from Zisalik.

5:30pm-ish and seemingly reached my minimum 50 plus a handful of dollars.

5:40pm and Rueben and Emuna walk by, she gives me a 5 Shekel piece.

6:30pm and some seminary girls came by and gave me a small Bissli, a sour sticks and a bottle of water.

7:35pm-ish while waiting for one more Shekel so I'll have 10 in my cup and be able to give a tenth, an American adult male puts a $20USD in my cup and I close out shop, giving the Shekels in my cup currently to Efraim, Bracha and a nearby Tzedaka box, assuming 9nis is equivalent to the $2USD I now 'owe'. Now I'm off to 'home', stopping first at neighbour selling chulent...I had debated about getting a burger but decided 20nis for 1/2kg of chulent is a better deal than 60nis for a burger and fries.

Just past 8 and on the train, feeling like I might fall asleep on the bus 'home'... wouldn't be the first time.

Just past 9:10pm and back in my room and having Moroccan chulent for supper.